Friday, 19 April 2013

OnceUponATime : Taking things easy

Me : Doc...dulu...masa saya kat klinik XX...saya dapat 1 kali jer shot time pregnant. Doc kat sane ckp to continue second shot kat sini.

Doc : Tak perlu la....1 shot jer dah cukup...die macam booster jer.

Me : Ok...Doc....tangan saya ni macam sakit la....should i be worry?

Doc : biasalah tuh...water retention....nanti saya bagi krim sapu

Me : Ok...Doc....kalau macam keadaan saya ni (34 weeks) ok lagi ke nak travel jauh? cm g penang ker?

Doc : Boleh car ke flight?

Me : Car jer...ok ke doc? biasalah....time ujung2 tahun ni banyak plak org kawen....

Doc : aah kan? sambil senyum...

I think...through out my pregnancy....Things have been ok. So ok until whatever I said/mengadu...
the doc will said...'biasalah tu'.

Dua ke tiga hari balik dari Penang...aku terus terberanak !

Allah knows best. Always.

Thursday, 18 April 2013

Mama Baba time

There's always FOODS !
I'm blessed for having a trusted person to look upon my baby,
When I'm outing with Husband.

The trusted person is my mother :)

We've been living together, plus lil bro since I graduated from University.
and after married, Husband stays with us.

Some people don't like to stay together with their parents / in law
maybe because they like to have their own privacy and
wanted to be independent.

For me,
Its because I want to.
My mother is a single parent
and lil bro is currently studying in Pahang...
my other siblings are with their in laws.

Im happy to stay with my mom and she's not fussy.
A lil diva-ish, but that's ok ! hehe.

Alhamdulillah, things have been easy so far.
Everyone in the house knows
how to respect each other's privacy and mind their own business.

What I noticed, after having lil Fea,
Husband and I are becoming more clingy than before.
We cuddled at night, after lil Fea is sleeping
and once in a week...we sneaked out for a date ! hehe.

I feel appreciated and loved more than ever :)
Some people said that those feelings will die after having a kid :(

That does not mean that Lil Fea didn't get her outings at all ~
She's out a lot ok, for the first 2 months....
due to her weekly visits to the hospital (Jaundice)...huhuhuhuhu

We did bring her out, once in a while,
Just to get her familiarized with the surroundings and people.

First experience was not so good but tolerable.
She was crying out loud....maybe she was too tired at that point
We didn't have a choice but to just quickly get out from the mall -_-

~ Our first proper outings @ Paradigm Mall ~
She has been to my husband hometown.
During the 5 hours journey in the car, we survived. Phew
But she was quite restless throughout the stay.
Might be she missed her Nenek and not familiar with the new surroundings.

Thank you my mama
I know you can choose not to take care of Lil Fea
...but still you happily do it.

Alhamdulillah. We love you.

first outing with Nenek also @paradigm mall :)

Tuesday, 16 April 2013

Lil Fea and Jaundice

What a strong relationship they had.
I`m glad, its finally over.....after 2 months !

After she was discharged from NICU,
We came back for follow up on the next 2 days.
As expected, her reading was high.
Doctor immediately put her on double photo therapy.

1st time admission

on the 3rd day, her jaundice reading went down and we were good to go home.

during her second follow up, her reading spiked up again.
Doc suspected, Physiological Jaundice.
It might take 3 weeks for a preemie to settle down, 2 weeks for normal baby.

This time, doc suggested home based photo therapy.
Considering I`m on confiment mode and need to have lot of rest.

Info & Price :

We rented the machine for 5 days, but since lil Fea didn't really like to be inside it,
It was not really working for her.

Went to see the doctor for the next checkup.
The reading went up. AGAIN.
Doc admitted us. He suspected Breast Feeding jaundice.

The nurses monitor my breastfeeding schedule and her poo poo
to make sure she got enough milk from me.
My breastfeeding schedule and her poo poo was ok though.

After 3 days, her reading went down. Alhamdulillah.

Next follow up, her jaundice reading, maintained.
At this point of time, Doc concluded that it was Breast Milk Jaundice.
I was advised to still breastfeeding her, despite my milk is the culprit.

You could find the difference of the type of Jaundice as below: 
Physiological vs Breast Feeding vs Breast Milk Jaundice

No need to put her under photo therapy anymore.

But, sadly, after that, my milk supply is not enough to support her demand.
I just couldn't catch up. So I started supplement it with formula.
Her jaundice reading reduced tremendously.
So its true, Lil Fea was having a Breast Milk Jaundice.

Each time I got the reading, that's mean Fea's feet was getting poked.

Its was a tormenting experience since I was there, holding her feet.
But that's what got to be done, and she is one strong girl.

Alhamdulillah, Allah SWT ease the journey though at first,
I felt like it was the biggest test I had in life.

The Strong Girl
Fast Forward, the jaundice fully subside after she turned 2 months old.

Happy Cheeky Baby
Wouldn't have the courage to go through all that without the support from Husband.
He's the one keeping me sane.
Going back and forth almost every week (for 2 months) to the hospital
for a first time mother is not something that I prepared for.

For mothers out there experimenting the same thing....
Don't be sad. It only needs time. :)

p/s: By the way, I've tried this thing from Sensei which was known to cured Jaundice
But it was not working for Sofea because She was having Breast milk jaundice...

Tuesday, 12 March 2013

She's here !

Our beloved daughter.
Cant believe I have a daughter now !

To be honest, I was having baby blues.
I cried every day since the day she was born.
I was afraid of too many things, I felt lonely most of the time
and I`m just not ready to say goodbye to my old life !

How can I ?
She's making her debut at 35th week !

A lil bit about my labour story
so that she can later read this post and know how diva-ish she was ! haha

3 days before my water broke

I found a blood spotting, which I think was the mucus plug.
Went to see a doctor, scanned and everything was fine.

2 days before my water broke

My mother and I sent husband to airport.

He was due for a job assignment at India.

1 day before my water broke

Husband at India -_-

On the day my water broke

I felt a flow of water coming out.
Not that much, but I cant control it.
I wore a pad, not that heavily soaked but water keep on coming out, slowly.
Worried. Called my brother at 11.30pm to send me to hospital.

20 Dec 2012

I reached the hospital and was admitted immediately.
I was once admitted due to threatened miscarriage, they gave me a jab and I'm good to go.

Labour Room

So I was expecting THAT kind of treatment, NOT being pushed to the labor room !
and my husband was not there with me. Hello...Im not ready yet -_-

Seriously, Im not ready !
A nurse check my opening, and it was 2cm with no contraction pain.
Subhanallah !

My doctor came and diagnosed my condition.
Baby was calm inside my tummy despite the lessen water.
The opening at 3cm, still with no contraction.
She mentioned by 1pm if there is no additional opening, she will start inducing me.
at that point, All I can do is Redha.
Allah knows best.

I guessed the doctor has forgotten about the induce thingy
plus I mentioned that I wanted to wait until the next day if the baby's condition permit.
I asked the nurse about the baby heartbeat monitored through CTG
and she said everything was ok. and still no contractions.

CTG reading

All the time, I was communicating with my husband..n my friends through Whatsapp
and we updated each other current status....

It was so nerve wrecking !

21 Dec 2012

My husband reached KLIA. Alhamdulillah

Husband reached hospital.

Yeay !
Now, I can eat :)
Doctor came and the opening was still at 3cm.
Since everything was set, husband check ! mummy check !
She started the IV drip to induce the labor process.

getting ready
IV drip
Doctor came again and check my opening.
Still at 3cm ! with no contraction. (not that I'm complaining though!)
she increased the dose...

Ok, I've started feeling the contractions.
Still bearable....
Ate hot rolls chicken & cheese :)

The contraction getting stronger...
I was begging for Epidural but offered an injection
which did nothing to me!
I kept on begging for Epidural....
but the doctor only decreased the IV drip dose
because the injection that i took earlier will only kick in after 40minutes.

I cant handle it anymore.
Now...I DEMAND for epidural !

The pain was getting unbearable!
The doctor checked my opening...and its already 7cm !
No wonder the pain getting more and more intense.
I one point...I was shivering ~
They arranged for my Epidural but the anesthesiologist will only come in 20 mins...
Argh ! 

The nurses started preparing for the labor process.
and one of them checked my opening...its already 9cm!
she updated my condition to my doctor and 
she cancelled the epidural right away !

I can now start pushing slowly while waiting for the 10cm opening.
Everytime the contraction came....I was actually confused
I didnt know when to push...though they kept on motivating me
and thought me how to push..
but at that time...i just want it to OVER.

I was fully dilated.
I begged for an assisted delivery since I`m just too tired and almost give up.
At that point....I wish the doctor just push me to the OT and do c-sect.
The pain was just plain unbearable ! and i didnt have my Happydural !
my doctor prepared the Forcep while she kept on asking me to push.
she saw my baby's head...but I wasnt able to push hard enough.

I gave up. 
I really dont have any more energy left and i didnt know how to push !
My doctor used the forcep...I felt the baby coming out from me.
and immediately I heard baby crying...

She's here !
Husband cut the umbilical cord.
Our baby was then handed to the nurses.
After they cleaned her, they passed her to us...
Husband performed the azan and iqamat...while our lil baby laid on my chest.

Allahuakbar! She was (and still is) amazing !

After that, she was sent to NICU since she's a premmie.

Her Paed
Our lil 'Astrounout'
The next day, after having a very good night sleep :)
I went down to the NICU to see our lil Fea,
I was on a wheelchair for the first day, and started walking on my second day.

The first time I held her on my arm.
The first time she cried on my arm -_-

She's a true survivor !
 After 2 days in NICU, she was discharged.
Alhamdulillah, though she's a premature baby,
We believe she is going to be one healthy happy baby !

Thursday, 28 February 2013

Never the same

Going to the office will never gonna be the same.

Our lil pumpkin was behaving so well this morning.
No crying while her babah bathed her.
So calm when I put on her lotion and clothes.
We put her on the rocker and she was closing her eyes, trying to sleep.

It was like...
'Mama...I'm behaving so well this morning. So, could you please NOT go to the office?
Please mama...Please...Please !'


Please pardon your drama queen mama :)
It was hard leaving you like that.
But I`m sure your nenek will take a good care of you.

Mama trying my hardest to pump the milk for you,
though as of now, I managed to get 3oz only :(
But, mama will make sure you get my milk everyday no matter how much it is !