Cant believe I have a daughter now !
To be honest, I was having baby blues.
I cried every day since the day she was born.
I was afraid of too many things, I felt lonely most of the time
and I`m just not ready to say goodbye to my old life !
How can I ?
She's making her debut at 35th week !
A lil bit about my labour story
so that she can later read this post and know how diva-ish she was ! haha
3 days before my water broke
I found a blood spotting, which I think was the mucus plug.
Went to see a doctor, scanned and everything was fine.
2 days before my water broke
My mother and I sent husband to airport.
He was due for a job assignment at India.
1 day before my water broke
Husband at India -_-
On the day my water broke
I felt a flow of water coming out.
Not that much, but I cant control it.
I wore a pad, not that heavily soaked but water keep on coming out, slowly.
Worried. Called my brother at 11.30pm to send me to hospital.
20 Dec 2012
I reached the hospital and was admitted immediately.
I was once admitted due to threatened miscarriage, they gave me a jab and I'm good to go.
So I was expecting THAT kind of treatment, NOT being pushed to the labor room !
and my husband was not there with me. Hello...Im not ready yet -_-
|Seriously, Im not ready !|
My doctor came and diagnosed my condition.
Baby was calm inside my tummy despite the lessen water.
The opening at 3cm, still with no contraction.
She mentioned by 1pm if there is no additional opening, she will start inducing me.
at that point, All I can do is Redha.
Allah knows best.
I guessed the doctor has forgotten about the induce thingy
plus I mentioned that I wanted to wait until the next day if the baby's condition permit.
I asked the nurse about the baby heartbeat monitored through CTG
and she said everything was ok. and still no contractions.
All the time, I was communicating with my husband..n my friends through Whatsapp
and we updated each other current status....
It was so nerve wrecking !
21 Dec 2012
My husband reached KLIA. Alhamdulillah
Husband reached hospital.
|Now, I can eat :)|
Doctor came and the opening was still at 3cm.
Since everything was set, husband check ! mummy check !
She started the IV drip to induce the labor process.
Doctor came again and check my opening.
Still at 3cm ! with no contraction. (not that I'm complaining though!)
she increased the dose...
Ok, I've started feeling the contractions.
Ate hot rolls chicken & cheese :)
The contraction getting stronger...
I was begging for Epidural but offered an injection
which did nothing to me!
I kept on begging for Epidural....
but the doctor only decreased the IV drip dose
because the injection that i took earlier will only kick in after 40minutes.
I cant handle it anymore.
Now...I DEMAND for epidural !
|The pain was getting unbearable!|
No wonder the pain getting more and more intense.
I remembered...at one point...I was shivering ~
They arranged for my Epidural but the anesthesiologist will only come in 20 mins...
The nurses started preparing for the labor process.
and one of them checked my opening...its already 9cm!
she updated my condition to my doctor and
she cancelled the epidural right away !
I can now start pushing slowly while waiting for the 10cm opening.
Everytime the contraction came....I was actually confused
I didnt know when to push...though they kept on motivating me
and thought me how to push..
but at that time...i just want it to OVER.
I was fully dilated.
I begged for an assisted delivery since I`m just too tired and almost give up.
At that point....I wish the doctor just push me to the OT and do c-sect.
The pain was just plain unbearable ! and i didnt have my Happydural !
my doctor prepared the Forcep while she kept on asking me to push.
she saw my baby's head...but I wasnt able to push hard enough.
I gave up.
I really dont have any more energy left and i didnt know how to push !
My doctor used the forcep...I felt the baby coming out from me.
and immediately I heard baby crying...
|She's here !|
Our baby was then handed to the nurses.
After they cleaned her, they passed her to us...
Husband performed the azan and iqamat...while our lil baby laid on my chest.
|Allahuakbar! She was (and still is) amazing !|
|Our lil 'Astrounout'|
I went down to the NICU to see our lil Fea,
I was on a wheelchair for the first day, and started walking on my second day.
|The first time I held her on my arm.|
|The first time she cried on my arm -_-|
|She's a true survivor !|
Alhamdulillah, though she's a premature baby,
We believe she is going to be one healthy happy baby !